Hi guys and happy Friday! I hope you are all well and are looking forward to the weekend. I can't believe how quickly this month has gone by, like hello how is it Halloween on Tuesday?!?! Never mind the month flying by, this year has just gone so quickly I can't believe we are coming into the final months of this year. To be honest, it wasn't until we started counting the days down until the wedding that I realised just how quick 2017 has gone by. I think the main reason why it has flown by is because between both of our families there has been something on almost every couple of weeks, it has been a busy yet very exciting year. Last weekend was the first weekend in so long that we didn't have anything major on and it was so nice to just be able to be, to not have to juggle ten things at once or having to rush home from work to go and get ready for something, it was nice just to take each minute as it came and not having to plan the entire weekend hour by hour. Although we weren't extremely busy or had anything in particular to do, I was absolutely drained by Sunday night! I suppose it didn't help that I wasn't ( and still am not) well, that does make you feel like someone has sucked the life out of you slightly, but I wasn't just physically tired, I was mentally exhausted. It sounds extremely dramatic and over the top, but it is the truth. I was so mentally knackered, that I could feel my anxiety and emotions heighten at the smallest things. Yes it is a good thing that I could identify why I was slightly more irritable than usual and why I cried on the way home from work listening to Kodaline (I know their songs are good but seriously I looked like something out of a Bridget Jones Diary movie, except sadly there was no ice cream!), but it still bothered me that I was like that. Sometimes life gets in the way and it is hard to control absolutely everything, meaning that from time to time we have absolutely no time to ourselves. Although we have the power to say no to things and to put ourselves first from time to time, at times there are certain family occasions, work commits and various other things that demand our attention, however it is taking too much on at once which is the problem, it is learning when and how to say no to both the people around you and even yourself at times. For me, it wasn't until I stopped last week and had two minutes to myself that I realised just how much I had taken on and how little time I was giving myself. All of my little tools that I use day to day for a happier and healthier mind just went out the window. Things like using my Buddhify app,using my bed time spray. drinking chamomile tea, exercising, writing, reading, blogging etc., were just pushed to the side as I was so overwhelmed with everything that was going on. Despite the fact that I coped quite well without these tools, it was once everything had calmed down that I suffered due to a lack of using the above tricks and tools. Although they are all simple things that can be incorporated in daily life, I know when I get busy or feel overwhelmed by everything I fall back into bad habits and neglect everything that I have learned over the past few years. Even things like eating too much sugar and drinking too much coffee and more alcohol make their way back in. When I drink alcohol, it can take anything from 2 to 4 days before I feel the effect of it, meaning I am just a ball of anxiety days later, something which when you have so much going on that you can completely forget and just live in the moment, which of course is fine from time to time, but I also have to remember to take a step back from everything, and force myself to go back to basics. The reason why I am sharing this is to show you all that no one is perfect, that of course life gets in the way and can sometimes undo all of the hard work that we have previously put in, and this goes for everything like weight loss, exercise, work, writing and indeed your mental health. Don't be hard on yourself, if you over do it and feel a bit down or anxious because of it, just recognise it for what it is, just a slight step backwards but once you take time to get back to yourself and pace yourself, you will be back on track in no time. With that, enjoy yourselves this weekend, be careful and most of all eat lots of goodies! Love as always, Em X
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