Hi guys and happy Tuesday! I am sorry I have been on the missing list lately, my life has been a little hectic at the minute! But I promise I am working on blog posts now and things will be back to normal from now on! I wasn't at yoga last night as I wasn't feeling well however I went last week so here is my update!! The class each week is getting bigger and bigger, it must be something in the wind! I loved the second class as much as I did the first however for some reason I found the poses more difficult the second time around! For the most part they were the same as the previous class, however my body was aching all over and I couldn't get my head around the poses! However I tried to do as much as I could and I enjoyed every single bit of it. I am still unsure of half of the names for the poses however my favourite is the crocodile (which is just lying on your stomach, which I can do!!) The main thing at the minute for me is working on my breathing and finding (as cheesy as it sounds) a happy and peaceful place within myself. As I have mentioned in previous posts, I hate spending time with myself and being alone. Although you are in a class full of people, you are blind folded so you feel like you are the only one in the room. You have no choice but to focus on yourself and to trust yourself. Last week I had a bit of a down week. Thoughts of self doubt and self loath were creeping back in. It sounds crazy but it showed in the class because although I knew no one was looking at me I was so self conscious and I doubted everything I was doing. I kept on peeping through the mask to make sure I was doing the right moves, the poor instructor was probably fed up of telling me to stop looking! I just couldn't find peace within myself, but that was not the instructor's fault, that was mine. I just could not switch off! Towards the end of the class, the instructor started talking about self believe and self confidence within yourself and the poses. She spoke about believing in yourself and feeling your way through the poses. Listening to your body to find what suits you and what feels right for you. It was extremely weird, as if she knew how I was feeling. It was then that I had a silent chat within myself and told myself to not let those thoughts ruin my time in yoga. I find it hard to switch off but in that class you are in a safe space where it is ok and acceptable to think about nothing just about your breathing and yourself. After my little pep talk to myself, the moves started to happen a lot easier. For the first time in that class I was able to flow into the moves and it felt amazing. It doesn't matter if I half do the poses at the minute, all that matters right now is that I believe in myself and learn how to trust myself. By the end of the class I was starting to do just that. Everyone goes to yoga for different reasons, mine happens to be to build self confidence and find an inner peace within myself. I may not be able to roll back on my shoulders just yet, but I certainly have a little bit more self belief each time I leave that class!! I will keep you all updated after next week's class! Love Em X
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