So last week, I felt like I was stuck in a rut. I felt so low and so down that anything I did just didn't seem to cheer me up. I couldn't put my finger on what had me feeling so miserable. Nothing in particular had happened, I just felt fed up. One of the days I was blow drying my hair and it clicked with me, I needed a change. With everything going on these past few months, I was so busy focusing on getting better and attending counselling that I always had something to think about and work on. The past few weeks I have been improving and getting stronger every day, so now the little things that used to take up all my time and cause me to worry constantly are no longer an issue for me. I am not saying this is a bad thing at all!! It is the best feeling in the world to not feel consumed by worry and upset constantly. Why was I feeling miserable? Then it occurred to me as I looked in the mirror, although I have made so much progress and I was starting to feel happier and more confident in myself, the old me was starring back at me. I know it sounds crazy but although on the inside I had evolved and changed so much over the past couple of weeks, I couldn't help but feel disappointed and held back by my reflection in the mirror. It was like the stress and pain I had experienced the past couple of months was still showing on the outside. I needed a bit of a make over! Yes I know it sounds crazy and a bit silly but the past few months I have focused so much on my mental health that I decided to give my physical appearance a bit of a make over. I headed straight to the chemist in the local shopping centre ( which has had a big sale on for the past two weeks and made me extremely happy!) I headed to the hair section. I needed a new look. I would have loved to go to the hairdresser's and spent the day being pampered but unfortunately I can't afford that at the minute so I have to enjoy pampering at home instead! I usually go on a shopping spree with clothes, shoes or handbags but this was a 'new me' shopping haul! I went for a L'oreal box colour, a few styling products, new nail varnish and a few new lipsticks. At the desk I spoke to one of the girls who said that in the past week a lot of people have come in looking to change their look. It occurred to me, that a lot of people get to the middle of the year and feel fed up, tired and worn out, that it is a normal feeling. It is like when it comes to the end of December and the Christmas period is nearly over. The presents have been exchanged, loved ones have come and gone, all of the food has been devoured and the button on your favorite pair of jeans won't close anymore. Although we have enjoyed the past few weeks, all that build up and excitement has slowly come to an end and it is back to normality soon enough. Then it's time to make those New Year's resolutions were we promise ourselves that this is our year, that we will be happy and that we will exercise until those jeans fit us comfortably again. This determination last's for max three weeks until we settle back into school/ college or work and we forget about these changes and promises we made to ourselves. Well I think that we should keep these promises to ourselves all year round. We do not give ourselves credit, a year is a very long time and we go through a lot every single day. We need new and exciting adventures to keep us going and motivated each and every day. So for me, going out changing my hair colour ( only slightly), pampering myself, re-joining Waist a-Weigh and throwing myself into my fitness again was my new year's resolution to myself. I have come such a long way with regards to tackling my Mental Health Issues and facing them head on. No wonder I was tired and exhausted. I needed a new journey to go on and a new adventure to go on. Your health is your wealth, that is both your Mental and Physical health. I am starting to see that both go hand in hand. We need to be kinder to ourselves. Pat ourselves on the back once in a while, treat ourselves by either a pamper day or a new game for the PS or by buying those new shoes you have had your eye on, whatever your interests are, treat yourself by enjoying them. Set yourself small goals each week, by attaining these goals you will feel a little bit better each day. We are all on this amazing journey, each day we are learning a bit more about ourselves, but for me the main thing I have learnt these past few weeks is to be kind to myself, treat myself, learn to love myself and ultimately stop being my own worst enemy but try to be my own best friend. Love, Em X
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Katie
7/23/2015 06:44:53 pm
So proud of you for being strong and making this blog, everyone loves it so keep going!!
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